This article will appear in Issue 52 of The Underground Sound @ http://undergroundrecords.org/sound
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I don't know......
To start, the names for the most part will remain anonymous, perhaps not even
the real names. But in this little article, we will regard actual real people.
I don't know if they're all still living, but I can say truthfully I met them
all if I give a shout out.
Now, you'd never know it reading this zine, but I don't give a damn about
a conspiracy, unless it's real, and I don't mean that it just meets my needs to make
it real in my mind. Pretty much I've had to experience or see it to mention
it. Do I know exactly what I am talking about? Why hell no. I didn't control any of the
things I talk about far as pullin' an actual conspiracy. Why not? Well to start I
don't give a shit and I don't have time for it.
I got friends, more than a few, who are all into it. I've heard enough
"theories" on what they're doin under the Denver Airport and over @ the FEMA
camps to choke a horse. I don't know about any of that, don't care. They
say when they do it to you, come to get you, then you will. You know what, yeah,
then it's mano-el-mano. Freedom is a real thing. The government building
concentration camps might be too, but I don't know that.
I do deeply care about people, my friends and to some degree my enemies. We all,
for the most part, have families and people we care about. Death comes and affects
us all. We're all spirits with animal bodies. You might disagree, but 'ol TW
knows something about death, the spirit(s) and our weak animal bodies. Some facts
are just hard to get away from.....
See, my last remaining decades on this earth, if I am able to get there, I'm more
interested in music, love, life and knowledge. I love science. I'd rather watch
programs about science than sports or news. Technology is a close second, but
I don't try and "keep up" with it. Computers are wonderful tools and much more,
yet they're also cranky, kinda stupid machines. They might be the wiki of the world
but it can't dance it's ass off @ the rave as we party down. Kinda it can you say?
Soon it will be able to you say? I don't know about that....
I've seen folks get so caught up with conspiracy it is the focal point of their
lives. Most people I know are the exact opposite, they are for real sheeple. Don't mean
I love 'em any less. But not everything regarded as a "conspiracy" is bogus
horseshit. Some of it is very real. Since the real parts have, again for the most part,
a great deal to do with my favorite subjects (YES, even sex!). I will have somewhat
of an interest in those things.
Take geo-engineering. It's real and whole blocks of science are dedicated to it. It's
easy to find long lists of references to businesses which take part in it, and you can
take college courses related to it for millennium. The forms it takes, I can't tell
you all about it. I don't know....
I do know this though. Long ago, outside the USA, someone I knew had a top secret clearance and we were at an air force base in an occupied country. They had to go into an area I could not go. I asked them what they did there. They said that was the "weather" part of the base, whatever that meant. I said oh like meteorology? They said, not really that. They had some kind of equipment on the planes they used for experiments. I asked what kind of experiments. They said they did not know, whenever they went onto the planes they had the equipment covered up and it was none of their business what they did so they never looked under the covers....
What kind of equipment I asked. Don't know they said. Big 'ol tanks they had on the planes, which took up the whole damn plane. What the hell was all that for I asked. They just shook their head. Some kind of weather experiments, they had been told it was cloud seeding stuff. Cool. Cloud seeding technology has been around and used for a long time. This was top secret military work, so it mighta beena little different from "cloud seeding".
A couple of decades later, I dated a psychiatrist for a short time. She's the one who told me I was ADD, which I laughed about and thought crazy, but come to find out I was the poster child. She had a patient who worked for an un-named defense contractor who worried that some of the things he had been involved in might have hurt innocent people. What the fuck would that be I asked. She said he worked on geo-engineering (geological engineering) that involved suspended airborne aerosol particulates. We talked about what that is for a bit. This was way, way before chemtrails had entered the internet legend. I will say though, at that time we did have the internet and the world wide web had been around for a few months.
Did either one of those people confirm to me that they knew what they were talking about? No. Yet they were both highly intelligent folks who know their work well. So I take them on their word.
Now Chemtrails. Nice name but now it means ridiculous imaginary delusions. You can find a few good sites that work hard to rebuff the idea that such exists. Large fleets of WWII bombers and dog-fights up in the wild blue don't have anything to do with geo-engineering. To believe so is in fact a type of conspiracy. I grew up around an air force base and been to a few more. I know hundreds of current and ex-military personnel. Any of them have anything to do, today with geo-engineering? I don't know.....
Because I don't know or care to know their business. I would not give a shit about crazy people believing shit is being sprayed out in the air either. Like people and your relationships thereof, I rarely give a shit about things which do not affect me. Stupid I know, but like I said, my little animal self is only gonna be here so long before I go back to the spirit world full time. I don't have time for conspiracy theories. Chemtrails equals in most minds conspiracy. So the sciences I reference to try and learn the truth has to do with real world geo-engineering. Not the government spraying us to kill us.
Nothing like interaction, real physical touch and feel to cement and verify relationships. That is a sociological, and physiological fact. So, like "smart meters", I didn't know about "chemtrails". I don't mean the conspiracy, I mean the reality. Do I know it now? No. Yet I can tell you I've had personal contact with both and studied some of the science behind them and use that logically to come to personal opinions and realistic conclusions.
I'm not much into imaginary anything. To read my writing and songs you'd say no fucking way! Yet I am an author and a songwriter. Like a painter we have our works. Stuff that don't exist are fun to write and sing about, but not to weave into an important part of your life.
Because if you do, you're gonna have subtle to massive problems. I'm not going to get into the "smart meters" yada. Read my last couple of zines, and check out the links in this one. I try to stay on the narrow with it, but I love fun too, so I have some with it. If you don't have humor you'll never know me, and not being able to process humor, no matter how smart or successful you are, will cause serious problems in your life. As many as believing imaginary things? I don't know...
Remember that classic Ozzy Osbourne tune, I Don't Know? Listen to it and the words. Most days I feel like Ozzy, don't know couldn't tell ya head on down the road with that shit I am not interested. People
have made me into the devil and a messiah and sure, I help them along. I'm a spirit with an animal body. Beyond that, you don't know unless, like I said before, you have a personal relationship with me, then you will know me much better. Depending on outside or inside relating to such relationship will determine if you know me, for real, or if you only know me because I allow you to know things about me.
In the USA today, we have a massive culture of intelligent people who know that if one could watch you, follow you, compile and research you they will know all there is about you. Not really, what you will know is by observation, which participants in any observation can affect variously, it's part of the real quantum world. You can take the statements in the first sentence of this paragraph and put in science instead of watch, knowledge instead of follow and compile; and research is already in there; and believe you know reality. Until you have direct physical relationships, you still will only have an idea or information. How you use that information will not only determine it's "worth", but the reality of situations concerning such knowledge. That is how reality works.
So, you might think you know about geo-engineering. Unless though, however, you work in that field you only have some knowledge of the information relating to it. In layman's terms, you don't practice it.
So I can't tell you what's going on because I don't work in that field. When I made my video concerning recent geo-engineering I put loads of humor into it. Maybe you caught that? Some I am sure put it down to my "stupidity". Yet when I say suspended airborne particulates are "almost smaller than sand" as I told the guy standing there as I filmed the "clouds", the reality is, nano-particulate science which is a real part of geo-engineering is much, much smaller than sand. Got the humor? NO? Lighten up....
Me cussin' as the planes flew over and the clouds came down was a type of humor. I'm not so much angry about the shape of things as in awe. Awe over how incredibly petty, stupid, ignorant, and without humor so many people are today. What caused this? I don't know......
From my observation though, much of it is narcissistic immaturity. Think about this, if you read my writings, listen to my music, try and form truths about me therefrom, hate it, you don't know shit. More than likely, somewhere in there I know what I'm doing. I know I've got you all up in my shit, and not because I have to be important or famous, or want you to like me, or dislike me. See, you really don't know what my true intentions are, if there are any. You don't know if there are any intentions for sure, either.
Take Facebook. Or Zuckbook as an increasing number of people call it. Some think it's all about Mark Zuckerberg or whatever his name is and that's why it's like it is. I don't know Mark, don't work at Facebook so realistically I can't tell you, nor can you unless you "know" more than I do, as to why they do the things they do. One thing though, many people take how they are perceived on Facebook, or who their friends are therein, a reflection of themselves as being important for folks to either know them, perhaps like them or be their friend, or for whatever reasons. I don't.
I don't give a damn what or who is related to my Facebook profile. Knowing this, hopefully you realize that being true, trying to know me through Facebook can be fun, but you're only going to know information relative to what I put on facebook. That may, or may not be the truth or even related to reality. In fact I have used the internet from day one in this fashion. It's all a crock of horseshit. I keep it that way for good reasons. If you and I are having a drink, making love or discussin' dreams and reality, we have a somewhat real relationship. That person or something online being real? I don't know.....
Folks say "but Todd people will think things about you depending on what you out up there and employers may not hire you because of it, or whatever..."
Take a step back, take a deep breath. The internet is not real. I don't mean it physically, I mean much of the information on it. There is SO, SO, much horseshit on the internet, we really need to teach kids at a very young age that, the internet is fun and you can learn much from it. It can also be complete bullshit and not real in any way, except for words on paper, which can say anything or many things to different people. I don't live my life like that. If you do, cool. Don't expect me to though......
Which brings us back to conspiracies. Both the "nutjobs" and the "government", as I put it in Issue 51, have lost their god-damned minds. The nutters think all this crazy shit is going on and the government does crazy shit to try to know or control what is going on and both are growing failures. Truth and reality has a way of knocking you on your ass. If you're talking power and control, remember, a universal law is almost saying things change, they do not stay the same. History shows us this. Sooner than later, things change and some picture of the reality from the time past comes to light. True, might still be conjecture or opinion, but to someone, it is their own reality. Real as in really real? I don't know.....
You'd be surprised how many people will tell you they know and realize the internet is not real. They act and live however like it is. hmmmmmm. That's kinda like a mental illness. If I worried about things some people might think I worry about, then I'd never post real, serious, but strangely entertaining and funny zines and video about conspiracies online. Because I know I will lose 5-10 folks off my friends list for it, every time I mention such things, and folks will continue or come to believe I am mentally unstable or suffering from true mental illness. Let's cover some ground here ------->
Humanity has a long running social mental illness. It's called delusional denial. Not going to get into the science much here cause we can talk about it for years. I could not tell you how many verifiable mentally ill people I've known throughout my life. I've worked in entertainment and artistic fields almost my entire life. So I've known more than a few. This is something I DO KNOW because I had to deal with them on a physical, personal level. I found out too that many mentally ill people share many commonalities with highly intelligent, even genius level people. Not always, but from my experience, MOST of the time.
Here where I live I know three genuine mentally ill folks. Probably many more, but the three I am talking about, two have been verified and are in treatment, one is scared to go to the doctor and be honest because he's afraid they will put him away. They won't, but I understand his fears. Not that I would care (is that not obvious?), yet I understand people are kinda scared of what people in power think of them.
One is a beautiful woman with a great government job who has told me she thinks men from the past are stalking her and that they're fucking with her via the internet and her cellphone. This has went on for over 20 years and involves at lease five different men. You can speak up if you know the names of these illnesses, I'm just gonna for-go that and describe 'em. Another is also a beautiful woman who thinks the government fucks with her and does experiments on her via electronics. I never could get it out of her as to why they'd give a damn, but that's beside the point. Sex with this woman is incredible and at the height of passion she speaks in tongues. It's a sight boy.....she also claims to speak to angels and has, for real, had extended shock treatments. She cannot hold a job. The government has denied her applications for disability. I told her to get a good lawyer, that there's entire legal fields dedicated to helping people like her. Did she? I don't know........
Last, but certainly not at all least, I have a friend who believes himself to be an important religious figure and deludes himself that he can manipulate the weather and cosmic forces. He says demons come out of people's faces and speak to him, that they torment him all the time and that aliens are contacting him all the time with infos and experiments. I love all my friends. I've been accused of being like these folks, even having some of their exact symptoms. Never have or had though, so I can't understand the kind of hell they must face in life (wink, wink, nudge, nudge). I don't know.....
I made the mistake of giving two of these people my personal phone numbers. I will just say I learned a lesson or two by making those mistakes. I will try and not let it happen again. One even is probably the reason for this article, but she was just thinking I was in distress. We're all a little bi-polar in the world today, but being in a good mood and enjoying the beautiful outdoors is not being in distress. She kept wanting to talk about my videos. I did not, nor do I worry about how
people will perceive them. She kept saying she was just worried, so much to the point I had to ask her to leave the property. They're all good folks at heart though, I mentioned them to make a point, or two. <----- font="" here="" size="3"> goes.....
